Story
With this song, I wanted to strike a sardonic and playful balance. In the wake of a significant break-up, I was exploring where love ends and love addiction begins. I had heard of sex addiction—but love addiction was a new concept. Was ours a healthy love that went bad? Was it just dysfunctional patterns cycling or projection? I had never felt that visceral pain that I’d always heard about—physical withdrawals, but from love. Why do I always look outside myself for a reflection of love? Why does our culture always describe love that way? With this, as with so many things, there are more questions than answers.
Lyrics
Written by Jesse Correll
© Indigo & Silk Songs 222 (ASCAP)
Two days now we’ve made no contact
Eighty-eight more to go
We both agreed this Summer’s one that
We’ll each have to go alone
Closed blinds by the swimming pool
The cold grill of a barbecue
I don’t want to waste the season
I don’t want to move on
You go enjoy the ocean breeze and
I’ll just avoid the sun
Self-help books on audio
From a starter home back to a studio
Sign me up, I’m a puppet
I’m just hanging on your line
I’m a fool, but fuck it
I just want to see you one more time
One more time
My shrink calls this love addiction
It’s a verbal attack
Her description sounds familiar
How I lean in just as you pull back
Give me methadone from my telephone
The courage to change or leave alone
Sign me up, I’m a puppet
I’m just hanging on your line
I’m a fool, but fuck it
I’ll recover next time
One more hit, then I’ll quit
Life alone hurts my spirit
Your embrace was sublime
I just want to see you one more time
One more time
I don’t feel well, I shake, shake
a dull ache fills up my chest…
I’m looking for some relief, from this grief
and all my feelings unexpressed…
Sign me up, I’m a puppet
I’m just hanging on your line
I’m a fool, but mother fuck it
I tap the screen to dial
These withdrawals made me call
You ignore them one and all
You’re much stronger than I’m
I just want to see you one more time
One more time
Two more times
All the time…
I just want to see you…all the time…